Jean Alphin

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The Sister,That I Thought, I Knew (65)


I better stop daydreaming, and open Autumn’s letter.

Dear Faith,

I received your letter,and you are right,I haven’t been around for Autumn.
Really not for anyone,just myself. But since Ryan came into my life,I now have a new life. We’re getting married,next month.
I’m so happy for Tamara,I wish I was their. On another thought,I probably would of messed up her beautiful day. I’m glad sis,that you,Ben and the whole family was their. Like I said before,I thank you and Ben,for taking her in as your own. Who knows what kind of life, I could have gave her. Matter of fact,I do,I don’t even want to think about it.
Please tell Mom,I’m sorry for everything,and I love her.Tell the rest of the family,I love them also,and I’m sorry.
I’ve been thinking for quite a while,about Ryan and I coming to Pennsylvania. But,it would only open new wounds for everyone,especially for Tamara. Please tell Tamara,I love her,and miss her.I know she won’t understand,but I feel I’m doing the best thing.
This will be my last letter,I don’t want you,or anyone else,worrying about me anymore. Ryan has a better job in the next town,so we will be moving to be near his new job. When we are settled,we are going to get married,and we are going to start a new life for ourselves.

Good By Faith,
Love,
Your sister,Autumn

I put the letter down and cried,I hope everything turns out good, for her and Ryan. I don’t know what to tell Tamara and Mom. I guess,I’ll have to tell them the truth. It’ll hurt feelings, but at least this will help them get on with their own life. By not having to worry about where Autumn is,and if she is alive or dead.
Ben came home from work,and I insisted on reading it to him. He knew I was upset, by the way I looked,with red eyes,and the unhappy look. Ben just sat down and listened.
After I was finished reading the letter.

Ben said, “I think Autumn is making the right decision. She is probably a shame of herself,for what she has been doing,for many years. To come back,and face everyone,especially Tamara. I’m sure Tamara won’t understand, maybe later down the road, but your mother will. She might not like it,but it’ll give her a peace of mind. Knowing that she is going to be alright.”

“Ben do you mind making yourself something to eat? Because I have a lot of phone calls to make. If I wait until later,it’ll be harder for me to do.”
“Don’t worry about me honey,I’ll cook up the best meal,for both of us. You just go and do what you have to do. Leave the cooking to me.”

“Thanks Ben!” I said smiling. “I knew their was a reason I love you.”

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The Sister,That I Thought,I Knew (64)


The next morning went fast,I did a couple of errands. I stopped by Mom’s,she needed me to help her with some papers. That she received in the mail two days ago. After I left Mom’s,it was late in the afternoon. I went home and made myself lunch,and took it outside on the patio. Their was a cool breeze blowing, but I loved it. I looked up at the sky,and the sky was a bright blue,and clear,and the sun was just glowing. This is such a relaxing and peaceful sight.

As I was sitting outside,I heard my phone ringing. I went in the house and answered it

“Hi, Aunt Faith,” the voice said.

“Hello Sweetie!”

“I called to say hello,I had a day off from work. So I wanted to make something different for diner,for Ned and I thought,I would try to make your famous Lasagna.”

“That sounds like a great idea,I haven’t make that for a while Tamara.”

“I need your recipe, Aunt Faith,if you don’t mine.”

“No problem,let me go and find it in my recipe box.”

“I’ll hold on.”

“I found it Tamara!”

I gave her all the ingredients,after she wrote it down she said.

“Thanks,Aunt Faith!” “I guess I better go to the market,and get my ingredients.”

“Okay Sweetie!” “Have a great day,and I know,Ned will be surprised,By,By!”

After I hung-up the phone,I checked my cupboard, and refrigerator. To see if I had everything to make Lasagna for Ben and I.
“Great!” I said to myself. “I have to defrost the meat first in the microwave, then,I’ll start diner.

As I was putting the Lasagna in the oven,I heard the mailman,put the mail in the mailbox. I went to the front door,and took the mail out of the box. Their was a lot of junk mail, which I threw in the trash in the kitchen. In between one flier ,that I almost missed,and would have threw. There was an envelope,I looked at the front of it. It was another letter from Autumn. I don’t know how the letter,got mixed up inside the junk mail,but I’m going to be more careful. Before I throw out any mail from now on.

It really seems strange,that Tamara called me not long ago. Then,I just received a letter from her mother.

It is really a shame,that Autumn wasn’t around for Tamara. She has really missed a lot of good memories. Someday,I’ll show Autumn, all of Tamara’s pictures when she was growing up.

Not that I mind, but, Tamara should be calling her Mom,about all the new things. That she wants to try out, beings, Tamara is a new bride. Really, my sister has missed out on a lot. I bet,Autumn regrets how her life was turned-around,after she found out about her second husband Jock.

In life, we all have to live and learn.

The Sister,That I Thought,I Knew (63)


It’s getting near the end of March,it definitely feels like spring in the air. I’m so glad that the winter is over, with the daylight savings time in effect, Easter has just passed us. I know,I feel a lot better,and more time to do things that I want to do.

Like I’m going to take a walk in the park,and then sit on the bench,and watch the children play.

There is a small playground here, where I used to take Tamara a lot. I would sit on the bench,and talk to other parents,that were there with there children. We all had such a good time,and enjoyed each others company.

But now the children are all grown-up, sometime, I see a few of the same parents here. We chat about what is going on with our lives.

On the way home from the park,their was a little boy around four, standing on the side-walk,with tears in his eyes.

“What’s a matter honey,why are you crying?”

The little boy said,”My ball rolled down the street again,and my mother said,if it happened again. She would make me come in the house,and I don’t want to.”

“What is your name,and where do you live?”

“My name is Charlie”, and he pointed to the house behind him.

“Okay Charlie, where is your ball,I don’t see it?”

“It’s across the street,in front of that truck.”

So I walked over their,and picked up the ball,and handed it back to him. He was smiling ear-to-ear.

“Thanks lady!”

As I was leaving,a lady standing at the front door of Charlies house. Opened it and hollered,Thank You.”

I felt good,because I did a good deed today.

When I got home,I went in the back yard. I noticed, my hyacinths and roses were blooming,they both have a great smell.
After roaming in the yard,I looked at my watch,and said to myself. I better go inside and take a shower,and get dressed. Because when Ben comes home from work today. He’s taking me out to dinner,and then to see a movie. We are celebrating our thirty-fifth anniversary. I can’t believe that it has been that long. We have been fortunate,to have been married that long. Of course we have,had our ups and downs,and our blessings.

Ben walked in the door, with something he was holding behind him. He gave me a big hug and kiss.

He said,”Happy Anniversary Honey,” you still look as beautiful,as the day I married you.”

“Thanks Ben!

He then took a bouquet of roses,from behind him,and handed them to me.

“This is for the love of my life!

We both kissed for a long time, while the heat from both of our bodies yearn for more.

Ben pulled away and said,”I’m not going to ruin this night. I’m going to go upstairs and take a shower,and get dress. Then I going to take my gal out on the town.”

Before he walks up the stairs,he smack’s me on my butt.

Ben smiles,with that naughty look, and says,”I’m going upstairs,you better not go anywhere.”

The Sister,That I Thought,I Knew (61)


The next morning,after I got Ben off to work, I called Mom.

“Good Morning Mom”

“Good Morning Faith” “What a surprise! I thought you might be working today.”

“Not today Mom! I only work two days a week,each week the days change,for right now. The reason I’m calling this early. Yesterday,I received a letter from Autumn.”

Mom got emotional,”I can’t believe it after all this time! Is she okay?”

“Yes she is,she is living in North Carolina,with her soon to be husband,Ryan. They both met at the center,fell in love.Then they decides to leave the center,in the middle of the night together. Because they thought,it would be romantic.”

“Really!” Mom said

“They then moved in with his brother and wife,until they both got jobs”. Autumn said,”When they had enough money saved for an apartment,they went out on their own. So far she said,they have been clean for almost three years.”

“That’s real good news,did you call Tamara?”

“No I didn’t! I’ll tell her later,I don’t want to get her hopes up.” You can call Chadwick if you want to.”

“I’ll call him later,when you decide to tell Tamara,I’ll call Maxwell.”

“Alright Mom, I’m going to write her back,to see if she has a phone or computer. I’ll let you know when I get an answer.”

“Okay Faith,have a good day.”

“Love you Mom,talk to you later.”

I was really glad to hear from Autumn. I hope her plans,and Ryan’s,continue to be clean,the rest of their life. I give them both credit,for coming this far,and cleaning their act up.

I’ll write back to Autumn,when I finish,doing my chores around the house. Plus,I have to decide,what I’m going to have for supper tonight.

The Sister,That I Thought,I Knew (60)


I sat down and proceeded to read the rest of the letter after dinner,it continued like this :

After we moved into our apartment,we both had our ups and downs. I had to be the strong one for both of us.
I’m proud to say,we both have been clean,for almost three years. Ryan and I are going to get married soon. If it wasn’t for him,who knows where,I might be.

How is Tamara doing? I bet she has grown into a beautiful woman. I know she must hate me,for not being there while she was growing up. I can’t thank you and Ben enough,for taking care of her. Who knows how she might of grown up,if she stayed with me. I don’t even want to think of the outcome.

How is Mom,and our two brothers? They all probably hate me to,for what I have done,all these years. There is nothing,I can do about it. Just try to keep myself and Ryan straight.

If you want to, write me, when you get a chance.

Love,

Autumn

Before I put the letter on my desk,I asked,Ben if he wanted me to read the letter to him.

“No Faith” “I just want to know if she knows she still has a daughter?”

“Yes Ben,she does!
Autumn thinks that everyone hates her.”

“I wouldn’t blame them if they all did,especially Tamara.”

“I’m surprised at you Ben,you don’t have it in you to hate anyone.”

“Your right Faith! Autumn just pisses me off. I feel for Tamara,her mother wasn’t around when she was growing up. When she needed her the most,we did the best we could,but we’re not her mother.”

“I know Ben,I feel the same way. Tamara,grew-up to be a beautiful and intelligent woman. I can’t believe she is married either.”
“We both have to admit it,we did a great job raising her,like our own. We tried having our own children,but it never happened. I guess it was meant to be.”

“Ben,how about if I make us some hot chocolate,and watch,a little television?”

“Okay Faith!” I don’t know how long I’ll be up,because,I’m tired.”

“I’m tired also,I thought we could unwind a little,before we did.”

“Sounds good to me,Faith.”

The Sister,That I Thought,I Knew (59)


Everything was going well,for everybody. One day,when I came home from work. I gathered my mail out of the mail box. Just a few bills,and a lot of advertisement,I thought. Stuck to an envelope,from the electric company. Their was an envelope,with a return address”9764 Linen Avenue,Liken, North Caroline. It was address to me,and I couldn’t imagine who it was from. But deep in my heart,I was hoping it was from Autumn.
I hurried to unlock my front door. Once I got in the door,I threw the rest of the mail,on the kitchen table. I sat down,and carefully opened the envelope. There was a letter in their. It read:

Dear Faith,

I guess you can’t believe,that I finally wrote to you. I guess you already heard,that I left the detox center,in the middle of the night. I’m sorry if I unset you and the rest of the family. But I had to do things my way,to end,my habit.
While I was in the center,I met a man,who’s name is Ryan Hibbson. He is a couple of years older than me. Ryan came from a dysfunctional family. He said,he had the same habit I did,drugs.
We both had the same classes,I grew to know him well. Like magic,we both fell in love,with each other.

One day we got this idea,to leave the center. We agreed, that if we both stuck together,then we could kick the habit together,if we really tried. Ryan and I had this crazy idea,to leave the center in the middle of the night. Just leave our personal things behind,and start a new life together. Which we both thought was so romantic. So we made our escape,a week later.
Ryan said,we could go over to his brother Bruce’s house. Because he wanted him to straighten himself out long time ago. So that is where we ended up. His brother and wife was glad to see him.They asked him all kinds of questions,and he told them,where he’s been.
To try to straighten himself out. Also that he brought his love of his life with him.
We both stayed with them,for about three months. We both got jobs in a Nursing Home. Ryan was hired for a cook.I was hired for an aide. We both saved our money for an apartment, while we were at his brothers.
After Ryan and I had enough money for an apartment,we moved out. Bruce and his wife,treated us real nice,we hated to leave. But we had to move on and test ourselves,alone.

I looked at the clock,and it was almost 5:00. I put the letter down,so I could make dinner for Ben and I. I’ll go back to reading Autumn’s letter,after dinner.

When Ben came home,I didn’t wait until he shut the front door.

I said,”Ben,you’ll never guess,who sent me a letter?”

“Your going to tell me,Autumn?”

“Yes” I said,with tears in my eyes.

“Did she say anything about Tamara?”

“No,not yet,it’s a long letter,I haven’t read it all yet.”

“Don’t you think a mother would asked first?”

“Your right Ben,you would think so. But she hasn’t so far,just about her and her boyfriend Ryan. Lets sit down and eat. Then I can read the rest.”

The Sister,That I Thought,I Knew (58)


The holiday is over,Tamara and Maxwell went back to their colleges. Everyone had such a good time,talking about all the good times,and some bad times. We also talked about Autumn,when things were normal with her.
Mom couldn’t comprehend,where she went wrong. She didn’t say much more,because Tamara was there. Mom said,”no more talk.” Because she didn’t want to ruin,Tamara’s great spirits.

It’s been three whole years,since that great Christmas. Maxwell and Mary Ann,got married, a year after that holiday. Tamara and Ned,got married last year. So far no babies,they have plenty of time ahead of themselves.

Nobody has heard from Autumn,it seems like she has disappeared, from the face of earth. I call the police every year,to see if they have heard anything from her. Every year,I get the same answer,

”I have your telephone number. If we get any new news,you will be the first to know”.

I just pray she is still with us. I’ll have to be patient,some day I hope to hear from her. I’ll just get on with my life,until then.

I started a new job,this week. My old place of employment, never reopened. I got a new job at Sears in the office. I’m working only two days a week,which is fine for me.
On my way home from work,it was raining hard. I’m glad that the temperature was above freezing,because the ride home would really be bad. This morning when I left for work,the ground was snow-covered. It must of snow some last night. Can’t complain,because it is the month of January,I’m sure we will have a lot more of this nasty stuff.

When I got home around 3:30, I made a meatloaf for diner. I made a big pot of Chicken noodle soup yesterday. Ben and I can have that for an appetizer tonight. It is such a bone warmer,on a night like this.

Ben came home around 5:30,and we sat down to eat.

“How did your day go Faith?

“Great Ben,I’m meeting a lot of new people,and they all seem very nice. Someone is always there to help me,if needed.”

“You’ll be okay,I’m sure of that. The drive home was bad,it started sleeting,and people were driving like idiots. Some are always in a hurry to go no-where.”

“I know Ben,when I left work earlier,it was raining hard. I thought,I might have to pull over,because I couldn’t see out of the windshield, very good. But it started to slow down a little bit, which made me happy.”

After we ate dinner,we both watched a little television,and then we went to bed. Because we both had to get up earlier,than we wanted to. Of course the month of January and February has surprises,from mother nature.

The Sister,That I Thought,I Knew (57)


Today is Christmas day,I went over to Mom’s to help her with preparing the food for the day. She insisted she didn’t need any help,but I thought,I would be there if she did.
Around noon,Maxwell and Mary Ann arrived,Maxwell introduced us,with a gleam in his eyes. It really showed,he was in love. Mary Ann was a petite girl,with blond hair,which she wore back in a pony-tail. She had the biggest blue eyes,that just sparkled. As far as weight,she might of weigh 100 lbs.

Mom liked her right away, Mary Ann asked if she could help her with dinner.

“No thank you Mary Ann,you and Maxwell go in the living room,and watch the parade on t.v. Faith and I have everything covered.

Next Ben,Tamara and Ned came walking in the door.

Tamara came out in the kitchen and gave Mom and I a kiss. “Merry Christmas”,she said. “I stopped over at the house,and Ben told us,you left early this morning,to help grand mom. I know everything smell awesome!”

“We’re eating around 1:00,so it won’t be long.”said Mom.
Just as Mom asked about what time,Chadwick and his family is supposed to be here. We all heard,Chadwick yelling “Merry Christmas” in the living room. Him and his wife Tracy,walked in the kitchen,and gave all of us a kiss.

“Mom said,where are the kids?”

Chadwick said,Tracy’s brother took them to Philadelphia to see the Christmas parade.His children,wanted them to go with them.”

“That’s very nice of him,they all should enjoy themselves,it’s better in-person.”

“Mom,I thought the same thing,said Chadwick.”

“Dinner will be ready soon,so both of you go in the living room,and chat with the others,said Mom

Half hour later,I set the table for everyone,and Mom said to me.

“Faith make sure you set an extra,place setting.”

“For who Mom?”

“You never know,we might have another guest.”

“Oh!” I said, (I thought),I wonder who that might be?”

Mom walked into the living room and said,”Dinner is ready.”

Everybody gathered around the table,and found a seat. Before they started eating,Mom said grace.

While everyone was eating and chatting,the phone rang. Mom jumped up to answer it. But when she did,who ever was on the other line hung up.

“I wonder who that was? Mom said

“Probably the wrong number,I said

“I guess your right Faith”

After we all ate,we went into the living room and exchanged gifts. Later Mom and I cleaned the kitchen up. She didn’t have very much to say,after that phone call. I suppose,she thought,it might have been Autumn.

After everyone left,”I asked Mom why she didn’t have much to say.”

“I’m just tired,after you and Ben leave,I’m going to bed.”

“We’re getting ready to leave,Ben and I gave her a kiss,and we drove home.

The Sister,That I Thought,I Knew (54)


I woke-up this morning with big plans. I got Ben off to work,about an hour ago. He was in a better mood,he said he had slept fairly well. That made me feel good,it gave me the incentive to follow through,with my plans.

Before I start,I better make a Christmas list. This will give me a few ideas. Maxwell is coming home for the holiday’s. He asked Mom,if he could bring his girlfriend Mary Ann. I already know her answer,of-course.
Tamara and Ned are coming. Chadwick and Tracy,with their children are supposed to come. Ben’s brother and sister,are supposed to come. I’ll put Mom’s name down,there is only one thing she wants. She would love to talk to Autumn.

The only person that won’t be here is Autumn. She hasn’t called or anything. I really wish,she would contact me,and tell me,she’s okay.

I decided to go to the mall,this afternoon. As soon as I walked into the mall,I noticed it was decorated.
There was a huge Christmas tree in the main center of the mall. It was just glowing with blinking white lights.. The tree was dressed with green,red and blue Christmas balls. There also were loads of ornaments,snowmen,Santa’s, bells and stars.
Everyone had their business sparkling,with gorgeous decorations. In the background,I could hear Jingle Bells playing. A lot of people,some with their children, were walking by me chatting with their friends. Laughing,and carrying their purchases in their bags.
This scene,just put me in a more festive mood,I walked from store to store and made a few purchases.
After a while,I got hungry and tired.So I stopped in a place to eat at the mall,and ordered a roast beef sandwich,and a cup of coffee. After I was finished,I said to myself, ”that did the trick”. I gathered up my bags,and walked to my SUV in the parking lot.

As I was opening my side door,a young man,with sunglasses,and a black pull-over cap. Also wearing a big black coat,came running over to me,and quickly,grabbed my purse.
Then he ran off…I screamed for help, a man and woman ran over to me.

“What’s a matter lady! The man said, while the woman just stood there,and said nothing.

“Call the police!” I said trembling. “I just been robbed,did you see that man steal my purse?”

“No I didn’t, I’m sorry.” he answered

As we were talking,the woman with him ran into the mall,to get security.

When the woman came back with the security officer,he took my report. And ask for my license.
He told me,he already called the police.There was another man with him,and he was asked by the security officer,to go and check in the back of the mall. Maybe the robber dropped the purse.

The police finally came,and took my report, and asked me for my license. I took the card out of my glove compartment. He asked,the security officer,”if anyone checked the grounds for him?”

As he was talking,the other officer came back,with a small brown purse in his hands.

He said, “Is this yours?”

“Yes I said.”

He than handed it to me,”Check to see what is missing.”

I then checked inside my purse,”I said,”The only thing is missing,is my make-up bag. It has about fifty dollars,and change in it.”
“What about your wallet?” the police asked

“I don’t need a wallet,my important cards for my car,is in my glove compartment.

“Well, Ms. Kilisk, your lucky, you recovered your purse,except for your money. It could of been your life. If anything comes up with this guy you described, someone will contact you.”

“I thanked everyone,and got in my SUV and drove home,still shaking inside.

The Sister,That I Thought,I Knew (49)


Today is a good day to go over and visit mom. It’ll be nice for mom and me.

When I left my house, the flurries stop. The wind felt like March winds. Well, it is November, (I thought) we just have to deal with it.

Mom didn’t live very far from me, maybe fifteen minutes, if that. The traffic wasn’t bad, some people were just doing their daily errands,I guess.

When I got to mom’s,I rang the door bell. She looked through the little peep-hole,and then let me in. I gave her a kiss, and she said,”Faith what a surprise!”

“I called you yesterday,but you must have been out.”Answered Faith

“Take your coat off,and come in the kitchen.I was listening to my station on the radio.
As I walked into the kitchen,I could hear Johnny Cash singing. “My name is Sue,how do you do,on the radio.

“Mom,I’m sure glad you didn’t name Chadwick,Sue.” Then we both laughed.

“What do you want to drink Faith? I made myself a cup of hot chocolate.”

“I think,I’ll make the same.” I said

As I was making my drink,Mom was just sitting at her table. I could tell something was on her mind. So I made some conversation.

“What’s been going on with you mom?”

“Nothing really”,she said.

“Well,you seem like,you are thinking about something.”

“If you must know Faith! I’ve been thinking about your sister Autumn. Every time I ask you,or Chadwick about Autumn,you both say everything is fine!
The last time I talked to her,was when we all were invited to her and Jake’s house for Christmas. How long ago was that?”

“Wow!” “That was a long time ago.”

“After that, you and Chadwick,hasn’t said a word about her. I’m her mother,and don’t you both think,I worry about her?
I can just feel,something is going on. It’s not a very good feeling. We both talk on the phone together quite often,but I don’t hear a word from you,about your sister. You just update me on Tamara.”

“Mom,I told you when Tamara came to live with me. Autumn and Jock were having problems. I also told you if she wants to tell you about it,she will. But she hasn’t called you,so,I guess she doesn’t want to worry you.”

“Now your really getting me mad,Faith! Everybody has problems! Autumn leaves her daughter with you,she doesn’t come back for her. Don’t you think that is odd for a mother?”

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